Someone you need in life

Just read sheali's blog, about a TV show that she watched. It really makes me think long..

The fatty girl in the TV show betrayed her best friend and revealed all the best friend's secret to the boyfriend. She claimed that she was mistreated and she wanted to revenge.

We all need someone to talk to and to share our secrets with in our lives -those you call 'best friends'.
Though it's risky to share your secrets but if you are willing to tell, they must be someone that you trust. I feel so sorry for that 'best friend' in the show, not only for losing the guy, but being hurt by someone that she trusted.

But on the other hand, I am sorry for the fatty girl too. In fact, there was a time i really thought about this - Do we really pay enough attention in caring how our friends' feeling?

I must admit that I am not doing a good job in this. There are times that I am busy with own stuff and neglected my friends when they may need me most.
I was only aware many months later after reading her blog, that a good friend felt lost and insecure in looking for new job..
I was only aware many weeks later after being told by someone else, that a good friend having insomnia problem for long time..
I was only aware many months later when she almost broke up with boyfriend, that a good friend actually had a serious problem with the boyfriend for long time...

I am really sorry that I am not there when you need me.
There are sometimes that I am really not sure that if you want me to be there.
I thought you want to be seen tough and independent, I thought you need time to be alone, I thought you don't want anyone to remind you the unhappiness, I thought you want us to neglect it, I thought I should respect your privacy and your right not to talk,
BUT I think I really didn't do well in caring you girls..

Sorry girls, if I have neglected you all sometimes, but please do let me know if you need me, and I will do try whatever way to be there.
You girls are the 'one' that I definitely need in my life..